• Lovegraveyardrot

    5 Nov 2008, 15:32

    It was so real.
    I called Sam. I heard his voice.
    I was sitting by the window. At home. Minnesota home.
    I asked "Do you know where he is?"
    Sam said "Yeah, I have a few numbers. I can give them to you."
    I wrote them down.
    I was shaking. I was nervous.
    Sam said " he has been trying to heal. he gets better and finds girls that help him. but everyone now and then he breaks down and say "I miss tara marie."
    My heart started expanding.
    Like it used to.
    i asked sam to go to Conor Oberst's show with me.
    he said "sure. i'll go."
    he said he lived in Williamsburg, off Berry Street.
    i said "of course you do."
    but my eyes were all on the paper in front of me.
    all those numbers, so far, yet so easy to finally...hear.
    i dialed.
    new york numbers seem longer...somehow...
    i woke up just as i heard him take a breath.


    i believe i'm going crazy.
    breaking my heart like this i public.
    entertaining thoughts of romance/suicide.

    ryan adams says i have a sickness.
    i couldn't agree more.
    but i won't drink his medicine.
    i hope it kills me.Ryan AdamsCardinology
  • take the nearest exit, wounds.

    2 Sep 2008, 1:45

    All i feel like doing is crying.

    It's all that i'm doing to keep me
    from walking into far rockaway and
    never coming back.

    i need something like
    "Eternal Sunshine..."
    I need everything to be black
    and painless.
    Like soil.
    So i can grow new memories.
    So i can dig new holes.
    And fill with other bodies.

    All i am is a washed up
    tragic girl, with the kind of thrills
    that deal with under the influence
    kind.
    i see dinosaurs where people should be
    angel wings where shirts should be.
    Made up boys where god would be.

    i see male models as actors



    i see bad decisions as my only way out.
    and love as a time bomb with thick out of reach wires.
  • sweetest downfall

    17 Dic 2007, 7:38

    the dead are pulling my hair.
    smoking the life out of me,
    digitalizing my laughter.
    i'm ready for the slaughter.

    it's dangerous being this
    out of touch
    and into touching.
    the burgandy falling out of
    my wrists,
    i'm qualified for platinum american
    express card.
    charges running through my sex.

    there's nothing else i can do.

    blood dripping off the tips of your
    hair.
    shushing me when i cooed "god's wine".
    like we were hidden.
    Ouch-less and pressed.

    i wish we could have had
    that beautiful beach bed.
    the surf off my shoulders
    and your freckles on your nose.

    daydreams are useless
    and all that i am.
  • Fm

    10 Dic 2007, 3:54

    Name your weekly 10 most played bands on LastFM

    1)Elliott Smith
    2)Feist
    3)Kings of Leon
    4)Soko
    5)Ryan Adams
    6)Her Space Holiday
    7) The Kooks
    8) Silverchair
    9)Fratellis
    10) The Early November

    Now answer the questions according to the numbers:

    What was the first song you ever heard by 6?
    Probably Something to do with my hands, or whatever. I used to listen to them and take hot baths.

    What is your favorite album of 2?
    I couldn't choose if you made me.

    What is your favorite lyric that 5 has sung?
    Said you didn't love me,
    right on time.
    just about to tell you
    but okay alright.

    How many times have you seen 4 live?
    Never

    What is your favorite song by 7?
    Ooh La

    Is there a song of 3 that makes you sad?
    Yes. Knocked Up. Reminds me of feelings i used to have.

    What is your favorite lyric that 2 has sung?
    I like all of sea lion.

    How did you get into 3?
    I can't really remember. I just remember i didn't leave my room for 5 hours the first time i listened to them.

    What was the first song you heard by 1?
    Needle in the Hay. Irony has a nasty head cold & hates my life. Thanks papercut.

    What is your favorite song by 4?
    I'll Kill Her

    How many times have you seen 9 live?
    Never. :(

    Is there a song of 8 that makes you sad?
    Miss you love.

    What is your favorite album of 5?
    I like all of them a lot. But Heartbreaker sometimes sinks into my skin like a fish hook.

    What is your favorite lyric that 3 has sung?
    Her hour glass body.

    What is your favorite song of 1?
    2:45 am & Kings Cross

    What is your favorite song of 10?
    Baby blue

    How many times have you seen 8 live?
    never.

    What is your favorite album of 1?
    The second one. and the second to last one.

    What was the first song you heard by 8?
    Frogstomp.

    What is your favorite cover by 2?
    there's this wonderful cover of All Is Full of L
  • i cut the wires.

    3 Dic 2007, 22:17

    "i haven't been fucked this good since third grade."

    math angles and conspiracy theories.
    some things just shouldn't be inside your head.

    and the only times i want to tell the truth is when people are doing things that destroy me.
    even when i lead them on to do it.

    circle crops still produce goods.
    no harm, no foul.

    tell that to...them.

    cause suddenly there is a them.


    spaceship commander, you have your orders.
  • i wish i was too drunk to remember

    28 Nov 2007, 18:11

    ...i guess it's safe to assume i have something abstract about me. the boys that come a-callin' only want the things that can't manifest. the almost boyfriend is almost dead and i am anything but. the spit in my mouth, for the first time is just mine. the blood brothers have lost their faces and i think i've finally bled them out anyways. my doppleganger is bringing me back to black outs. his dead girlfriends are hanging tinsle in my hair, kissing my neck and whispering "murderer, murderer, killing everyone but you." i can't feel grateful. all those times in the bathtub with our wrists cut and our lips locked...and the glass bed we fucked in. Angel is dead. It doesn't matter if i see his twin brother on the bus or at the show, he's dead and burned up. and now i just have his pictures and his ghosts. i've been sleeping a lot. to prevent the insomnia madness that comes when the ground freezes. i'm finding out the my worth from the lips of others. only good enough to be a secret, like i was that one summer/year when he used to tap on my window and we'd stay out till the sun came up. my body raw from friction and lies.

    i should just resign to the one with the right idea of who i am. i can live with being tara lee.
  • Team Sleep

    12 Nov 2007, 17:17

    pillow talk.
    A brand new colony.



    you wouldn't understand.

    my favourite word is 'yes'
    because it's the one word no one has ever said.
  • le bones, tara.marie. le bones & beauty.

    7 Oct 2007, 6:32

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    ...yes, is all i hear.
  • approximately, english lit.

    21 Sep 2007, 20:52

    I've been pulling down spanish for years.
    cotton barely covers the holes that have grown.
    i'm used to being replaced.
    i've got an expiration date
    and a timebomb tied to the ends of my eye lashes.
    my market value commits suicide everytime
    i lose a boy to the same mistake.

    serial killers, and the taste of lime on your lips.
    blood crumbs and whispering prayers to Mother Mary.
    I keep trying to remind myself to fall on my
    knees and remember that Jesus died for me.
    But i can't seem to find a minute to care.
    The only men that i could depend on were
    Jack, Gin, and Jimmy.
    And if you break their bottle, you don't break their rules.
    So no fires of hell just an acoustic guitar god
    with a voice that sends me into shock.

    What was it?

    Your mouth
    Your mouth
    Your mouth
    started the fire that ignited my needle stick fingers. there isn't a spot on my body that doesn't burn with the touch of you.



    (i want to give up and be amazing. i wish i were a self-cleaning oven)

    EDIT:

    i see no difference in giving road head and new jersey.

    "I see no difference in solitude and romance."

    & you wonder where this tattoo comes from.
    or where the scars on my arms have sprung from, or where they new ones on my body have come from.

    No, i get it. You don't.

    You're the liar.
    And you have to be to fall in love with me.
    You have to lie to yourself.
    You have to tell yourself something else.
    You have to take all these steps.

    can you blame me for having a drinking problem?


    Ryan Adams[/artist
  • how the night sleeps.

    18 Sep 2007, 5:54

    Fingers inching over mountains of pillows.
    Touching the hot skin on your neck.
    You're pulse like a machine.
    Blood like a waterfall.
    Pulling you towards me
    cause i can't imagine where else
    could this good.
    Burning tongues like Gods at war.

    What else was there?
    Your teeth on my bones
    and my breath in your ears.
    Pleasure and pain in every drop
    of sweat.
    Your name,
    and the way you arched your back
    when you were almost done.
    My nails digging into your shoulders.
    Heavy rotation.
    A new episode everytime.
    A new way to suck off your taste.

    sleeping off fatigue.
    falling in love
    like minutes falling
    off the face of the clock.

    round 2...