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Although it's been a few days, I decided I wanted to say a few things here about MCA passing. Beastie Boys have been part of my life since I was small. Some of my earliest memories involve hearing them blasting from my older brother's bedroom down the hall. Through so many bad times in my life, Beastie Boys have been there for me to just zone out to and pick me up. And MCA was always my favorite... he seemed to be the chillest, most down-to-earth, and yeah, the cutest. Though I knew he had cancer, I thought he was getting better... I never expected him to be the first to go, and definitely not this soon. So, needless to say, I'm still in shock and feeling so many things. It's upsetting that I will never see Beastie Boys live (which I've been waiting eagerly for since the tour was pushed back in '09) and I'll never be able to meet MCA, and there will be no more albums from these guys. Everything's changed now, we lost a legend. For me, it feels like I've lost part of my childhood, part of my who I am, an old friend.

It's hard now to listen to anything other than Beastie Boys, but at the same time, it hurts to listen to them too. Although I have found that, for a couple minutes, cranking up something like Shake Your Rump as loud as possible brings some momentary comfort. Thanks for everything, MCA, we'll miss you too too much. Sending love and as many positive thoughts as possible to his family and friends at this time. Rest in peace, brother.