4 Mar 2013, 8:31
I have had all of my usual haunts taken over by a bloody nutter. It appears this is the only place he ignores.
No-one deserves to be treated the way this person has treated me. I want to be the bigger person and forgive and forget and make dandelion-chains, but the lies he tells about me make me VERY unhappy.
I know in the long run he will 'get his' (we all will). Perhaps his biggest fears of being seen for who he really is & then left alone will come true? I know he picks girls so much younger than him (10+ years) so that will be less likely to happen, but it will.
In a strange way that makes me sad. I mean, he is not a good person. He tries, I think, but it never works for long. Still, it is hard to think someone you once cared for would succumb to something unpleasant. Even if they were cruel to you.
He is a lot less clever than I gave him credit for. His friends see through his lies (one of them contacted me to let me know what he was saying about me and recommended that I cut contact off with him completely. I thanked him and did so) and he is found to be untrustworthy (they feel bad for him though. He plays the victim well).
Now, I just want my life to go back to 'normal'. Music, family, friends, blogging, bad photo-taking... some I cannot until he goes away.
In the meantime, I am living my life outside the internet. It was a bit scary at first (I kept picking up my phone looking for something to do). Now it is exciting and new.
I will avoid e-relationships at all costs. They can only bring pain, fear, disappointment and unhappiness.
And I prefer happiness. And love.
Anyone that takes those from you should be avoided.