Sometimes I listen to the music I like and I feel the same as the author of the lyrics...
I start with these two songs:
Assemblage 23 - Damaged
I am merely the product
Of the life that I've lived
An amalgam of sorrows
And the wisdom they give
But the weight has grown heavy
And its dragging me down
It's so hard not to sink now
But I don't want to drown
I'm damaged
But somehow I've managed
This far
But I don't know if I can find my way back home
I'm damaged
But somehow I've managed
For now
But I don't think I can face this on my own
There is beauty in hardship
There are poems in grief
There are trials we must go through
Though they may shake our beliefs
But I don't know how I got here
Lost in the cynical dusk
Set adrift in the worry
That I've no one to trust
If to suffer is holy
I'll take my share of the pain
I can swim through this sadness
If there's something to gain
I can reach for the surface
And try to pull myself free
But the last thing I want is
To drag you down here with me
Alphaville - Because Of You
Oh, I want to know I want to go
Through that situation again, I'd like to catch
That something in your eyes it thrilled me once again
That gentle touch I can't describe
It's like a reflection of the moon on the water
Don't let it go, because of you the earth stood still
Just do it again
Burn, burn away, sacred letters, ragged backdrops
I don't care, the certainty of death,
The boring rituals of life they seem so far
I don't care for my life, I just live for your love
That is because of what you do, just do it again
Because of you the earth stood still
Just do it again
Assemblage 23Alphaville