Jueves 2 Ago 2007, 2:30

I hurt myself today
to see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
the only thing that's real

Today i've cried. maybe its from the full moon acting on me. Whatever it was i waked up really sad. Been listening to some slow deep voiced doomish songs:

Too Far Gone
Brighter Than the Sun
Carry Your Cross An I'll Carry Mine
Night's Dew
Quiet These Paintings Are + Outro
and the World Coming Down album.
Specially the
Everyone I Love Is Dead (Album Version)
Everything Dies (Album Version)

the needle tears a hole
the old familiar sting
try to kill it all away
but I remember everything

The day was ending without much reeking until i decided to watch the BBC's documentary about Him. I'm referring to the greatest country singer, Johnny Cash. And then, at the end, BOOM. It happened. The video for Hurt showed up. I've must watched thousands times that video and another thousand times times i've listened. And every time, i got the chills, the cold ripping through the spine, the anguish in the soul… But today, tears had reached the outside, and even with my efforts to retain them, they flowed down. It's definitely the saddest song ever, i just can't stand unmoved by its imagery.

what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
and you could have it all
my empire of dirt

NIN as some really nice songs, but Hurt isn't one of those, although his performance of the song does give it a warm feeling. But as Trent Reznor himself said, it's just not his song anymore. Cash gave soul to the song.

I will let you down
I will make you hurt

It's even more touching while seeing the music video (directed by Mark Romanek). He is that fatherly figure, with that astonishing dark aura.

I wear this crown of thorns
upon my liar's chair
full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair

He had so many ups and downs, that i'm glad he got signed to Rick Rubins' American label. It would be shameful if he and his strong voice disappeared.

beneath the stains of time
the feelings disappear
you are someone else
I am still right here

And to think he survived his wife's death, so ill that he was. How sad he must have been.

what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
and you could have it all
my empire of dirt

I will let you down
I will make you hurt

After June Carter's death, Cash recorded more than 60 songs. Less than 4 months later, Cash died.

if I could start again
a million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way

His first wife died in 2005.
His house, which was used in the making of video, burnt down very recently ( April, 2007)