Since then, i've learned things-- secret things they keep from your sight at the clinics, you know-- and I understand more clearly what i experience is "Hyper-mania", or in archaic terms, one might say i am a maniac, and psychotic.
How does that grab you? but-- here's the real double-take-- /They/ don't tell you that shit! it's like... playing a game of "Clue", or something. before my discovery, it would be: "Why am i so shitty today", or conversely, "Goddamn, i am in a really freakin' good mood today". Apparently, scientists deem that such /affective disorder/, or "mood swing" is abnormal.
i don't know. i do believe the meds help. But, instead of alprazolam, which REALLY helps, i'm getting some friggin sh*t "Hydroxyzine Pam"! You know what /that/ is? It's basically /Benadryl/ which hasn't yet been approved for OTC distribution: a goddamn antihistamine, for chrissake-- for a recovering ____in addict... i mean, c'mon!
f'n crazy man. the United States is ALL F'd up when it comes to this shit...
now... where was i?
oh... trying to do something productive, and not in front of this goddamn-- not cathode ray tube-- but whatever the hell; these liquid crystals all lighty-uppy-...
"hey pig!...yeah, you! Hey pig piggy pig pig pig: all of my fears came true...." [ T.Reznor ]