Jueves 11 Dic 2008, 1:54

I don't get this. I don't know who I am. I'm so lost now. Everything I used to love seems to hurt now. I'm not happy. There are so few people who don't drive me crazy now. Why did you have to do this to me? Was I really so terrible to you? Did I hurt you that much? Was I really that immature? Bad looking? Stupid? You left me with nothing but questions and that wasn't fair. What was so bad about me!? I just don't get it. It seems every time I look in the mirror all I see is a stranger looking back. I don't know who Cam Rice is anymore.There's only one person I have that I can even talk to mask less…Someone who actually cares…not like you ever did. You never even knew me, you thought you knew me so well but you had no idea, not a clue how I truly felt and it's cause every time I tried to let you in you made me feel like shit. You tainted me and made it so no one else can see what I hid. Now I drag around this mask all day and pretend, pretend to be happy, pretend to care, pretend everything is okay but it's not. I don't even care about you anymore but why did you have to tear through my life like a fucking tornado before you left!? Couldn't you just leave? I wish I made you leave…

"First time you screamed at me
I should have made you leave
I should have known it could be so much better
I hope you're missing me
I hope I've made you see
That I'm gone forever

And now it's coming clear
That I don't need you here
And in this world around me
I'm glad you disappeared" "Gone Forever" by: Three Days Grace

And so we'll see what tomorrow brings…